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Reading Minds….

Reading Minds….

So yesterday I turned 44. Yeah that sounds all weird actually. It’s even a little tough to type because my mind can’t figure out where the time went. But that’s all so cliche and whatever.  But all the 55-year-olds are like “What are you complaining about?” and all of the 33-year-olds are like “That’s not old even though they’re thinking it IS old…” and all of the 22-year-olds are like “I’ll never be THAT old…” and well, my kids just think it’s cool that I’m an age that has...
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When the Moment Arrives, I Own It.

When the Moment Arrives, I Own It.

It wasn’t anything earth-shattering. To other types of mamas perhaps, it could even be considered insanely ridiculous that this moment would arrive at such a completely mundane time. It was after 9 PM. I had been folding a couple loads of laundry that had piled high in the basket after being neglected for the last 12 hours or so.  I had been watching some Tivo’d Glee that I had let the viewing fall behind on due to some really nonsensical and insulting story lines that had been interjected into my beloved theater geeky, heartwarming, formerly-consistent...
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My Boy

We had been living in limbo for too long it seemed. It was late Spring 2006 and our second-born, our Phoebes, was going to turn 2 in July. The last two years had been the hardest we had ever lived as a couple. The foundation we had started building together since the oh so young age of 23 had crumbled beneath our hearts. It shook us to the core and left us dazed as we stood looking at images in our mirrors that no longer resembled our former selves. When I look back at it now, I am amazed at how lost we were. How lost I was. How I literally lost myself to motherhood....
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Conversations with my Kid – Talkin

The memory is vivid. I am standing in my jammies at the end of our hallway. I am leaning against the corner of the wall peering into the living room and I am hidden from my parents’ view. They are sitting on our yellowish-flowery 1960’s sofa cuddled close looking happy. The glow of the television flickers on their faces. I stare at them. Loving them. Needing them. And my five-year-old brain is riddled with fear. “I don’t ever ever want my parents to die,” I think. It’s the scariest thought I have ever had in my entire...
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How to Stop Your Kid from Sucking a Paci

Written by Lee So yes. I was scared as hell to become a mother.  But despite my deep-seeded fear that God did not cut me out of mother-making material, I couldn’t quite embrace the loads of parenting books that new mamas sometimes like to sink their insecure teeth into.  All the words I read as I tried to at least make it through the good ol’ standards “What to Expect When You’re Expecting” and “What to Expect the First Year” were just that….words.  Words that were just not doing the trick for me.  Words that were not...
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A mother seeking that ever-elusive sign

Written by Lee Am I succeeding at this mom thing? Am I? When will I see a clue, or catch a glimpse, just anything to tell me that I’m doing okay? When I worked it was easy. Producing television programs, starting something, and then finishing it. Working hard, being stressed, using my brain, interacting with the world, getting a pat on the back once in a while, working late, working long, but then done. A finished project. A feather in my hat. A line on my resume. Done. And done. As a mom, I am never done. And it’s taken me a while to figure that out. And...
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Sassy Water, Flat Belly Diet and Excruci

Written by Lee Oh Lord, what would I do without the wisdom bestowed on me from my beloved Today Show? Once again, I was buzzing around the kitchen doing all the stuff a morning in our home requires and all the while Matt and Meredith and Ann and Al were chattering away in the background about all things grand and small and I was just about to turn off the television (because do I really need to watch the umpteenth hour of the Today Show?) when I glanced up and saw two words that mean more to me than I ever thought they would – “Flat Belly.” And I...
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EXPOSED

Written by Lee Standing on the side of a freeway.   Yesterday, I left my dude and my kids and my extended family at Lake Arrowhead, a couple hours away from LA and a world away all at the same time, while I sped down the mountain and then headed west on the 10 freeway towards home.  I had to leave early because I’m doing this show, you see, and I had to get back for the Saturday night performance. I smelled rubber burning right before it happened.  The left front tire blew as I sped along at 70 mph along a crowded fast freeway filled with way too semis.  I...
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My Life/Her Life Before My Eyes

Written by Karen, a mom without a blog This past weekend, I had the absolute privilege to watch my oldest daughter perform one of the leads in her middle school play. Nothing does a parent prouder than seeing your offspring shine on stage. You’d think that watching her and feeling my heart swell with pride would be one of those seriously defining moments of parenthood… Well, you’d be right… but not in the way you might think. That moment just got the ball rolling… To give perspective, you have to travel back in time with me a bit and realize that I was not...
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The Evolution of a Mother

When I look back on my first Mother’s Day six years ago, in a way, I feel like I was playing the part of a mother.  Sure, I was doing all of the things that you would see a mother of a 10-month-old baby girl doing but on the inside I was a woman who was in no real way comfortable in my mama skin.   I loved that baby girl, CR, with all of my heart, of course, and my eyes would well with tears when I looked into those big hazel eyes and thought of all I would do to make sure she was okay. Those feelings of wanting to protect and nurture and care for her- they were...

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